It has been over a month since Oakley was born, my third baby, that makes 3 under 5 years old. I gotta tell you, this isn’t parenting thing isn’t for the faint of heart. It is taking everything I have got…and I am getting a huge amount of help from my family and have been feed almost every day by friends, bless them all!! Sometimes I do lay awake in bed sweating and think “what am I going to do when the meal train stops, Joel goes back to work and mom goes home!!” …..But I will cross that bridge when I come to it. For now it is time for me and the family to find the new normal. What is the flow of our days when mommy has to tend to baby’s need before breakfast? How do we navigate one small lap when all three kids MUST be held at the same moment, or worse need a diaper change at the same moment? I admit it, sometimes one, or two does cry a bit while they learn to wait for mommies free hand and I must learn to spread my heart so wide to hold them all with it when my hands can’t reach. It is stressful and I am tired, it is true, but I am finding new tricks, like singing more, as they can all hear my song equally. I am holding them more and being even less ambitious than ever though that does kill me cause often all I want to do is get SOMETHING, ANYTHING done from start to finish without interuption…But it is getting easier everyday and we are all finding our way together. I am getting many moments witnessing the beauty of my children while sitting breastfeeding and watching them play, something I honestly rarely do ( sit that is!)
Life is slow, but steadying and summer is the perfect time to let things unfurl and find their own equilibrium. So I guess all this to say, no news is good news here from the nest.